lol you don't suck... to be honest, for a beginner, your fundamentals are pretty good. Your weight is leaning forward, and your elbow is in a stable position for both backhands and forehands. This will put you in good stead for when you look to put more spin and power into your shots.
Based on your stroke mechanics, it looks like you probably already have a coach? If so, would be worth asking them to find ways of generating more acceleration into your shots (e.g. using your body weight transfer a bit more).
Just a couple of things to consider:
1) You have a pretty pronounced grip change between your forehand and your backhand. Is that something that you do naturally? Or do you have to think about it every time you hit a shot? If you have to think about it, then that could account for you missing shots, as it's just another thing that you need to think about before hitting the ball. This might not be a problem during training, but during a match this could be more difficult. Maybe try a neutral grip that works for both forehand and backhand? Then once you feel like you have plenty of time during match situations, then possibly consider the grip change again? (although there's even plenty of pros that don't bother with the grip change)
2) You train close to the table, and many of your shots are off the bounce... do you play your competition matches like this as well? If so, maybe take a step back to give yourself some more time. That way, you'll have more time to get in the right position to execute your shots, as well as more time to read any incoming spin.
But in general, I think you just need more reps into your shots, so they feel more natural.
Also, is this you? Dude, you're making great progress in a pretty short time...
