Okay. At a certain point you will have to figure it out yourself if it works for you. I have told you how better players think, you are free to disagree with them. This is not an unusual debate by the way, some people talk about Lin Gaoyuan's unreliable game, but some people say it is because his technique is not stable enough with spin to handle pressure moments. So you are not unique in having your own disagreements.
No I just think we talk about different topics and you two try to combine two different issues. I mean we can just agree to disagree at this point. I don't want to put more energy into that discussion. So let's leave it at that.
Your technique is suboptimal. As
@songdavid98 said, you are doing something wrong, you don't understand it is wrong, and you continue doing it. And then under pressure it fails you, but you think it is you, not realizing that what you are doing is wrong even if you think it is correct.
We all have suboptimal techniques even pros. I mean you watched the entire match if you forgot how it went a quick
tldr: I am scooping instead of not being afraid to loop when the block lands short for example.
I am too afraid too loop long backspin balls to my bh (only did like ~4 times in the entire match about 50% hitrate)
Afraid to collect data by topspinning even from suboptimal positions with the fh.
Some tactical mistakes like looping to the fh or blocking to the fh when I could have gone hard on his backhand especially after he left the table.
Like it's hard to talk about technical mistakes if I am too scared to make them. The few I missed were basically in the beginning (looping out collecting data) then stopped collecting data and tried really hard many many times. Even backspin balls I wanted to loop hard forwards. Just stiffening up so much when trying so hard to penetrate the rubber to "get spin" but it only works when I am relaxing.
I think I will go with T19 max. For the Bh I will decide after Mondays training session. But I think I will listen to the people here that tell me that t05 fx is too soft for me. So I will look for a more lively rubber than R7 but softer than d09c still but not as catapulty as a D80. No clue what that one could be.
Also I would like to ask what kind of drills I can practise for the match to get more balls to the middle/fh side without me giving them a ball on to their fh (most people loop diagonal) Because if I keep them at their bh I am thinking too much about covering my own bh with my bh so it gets harder for me to use the fh.
Also I will keep in mind to use my reverse pendulum serve to their short fh. Also long in to their bh (fast) -> But I need to rpactise this ball more if they don't miss the receive because that ball is very difficult to deal for me since it drifts far to my bh so I have to learn hitting that with my bh first. And if they chop it downwards it is even more difficult to loop with my bh and even to push I guess I need to do it more and practise attacking that ball more.
Also I will keep in mind to serve more short balls but varying the spin with backspin no spin pure side and sidetop to keep em guessing and making some pop up.